Talk With Pete

Looking back on all the conversations I have had with Pete I began thinking about how I could out to use his advice. While it is late in my project to be realising that he was right, it is always important to admit when you were wrong and so on approach to our next upcoming conversation I thought about what he said about Gerard Richters work and its connotations. He asked me to think about what the harsh, destructive brush strokes of Richter would imply about the message I was putting across. I created a research page on this and tried creating my own works, instantly I could see through my own creation that this was putting across feelings of anger and confusion. The following conversation I had with Pete was mainly me talking about how I had realised I needed to take a step back from my work and explore what came before my own pride, the making of my pride so to speak. I began creating pieces of work which clearly expressed my feelings before my own coming out. Clear thoughts I remember thinking such as "am I allowed to look at her like that?", "is this okay?". I am also digging deep into one of my other blogs, an online journal so to speak, where I expressed most of my thoughts and confusion about always keeping boys at arms length and why the heck I couldn't take part in a heterosexual relationship without feeling wildly uncomfortable. To me this is wildly personal but hugely important in expressing my own original feelings building up to who I am today. This will then lead up to some big pieces of work expressing the gay pride I now feel after discovering who I am.